Why Does It Matter?

Last Thursday, I came to God (during a “Kairos” event at Gateway Church in Southlake) with the question, “Am I a good wife, and a good mother?”  The thought that immediately came to mind was, “Why does it matter?”  The answer seemed a little abrupt, almost rude.  We had to move on, so I pondered this only briefly.  I even wondered if that was God speaking or just my own thoughts.

 

Later that evening Ara wanted to watch a movie with me.  We scanned Netflix and decided on “Seven Days in Utopia.”  It was about a golfer and his rise to play in the Texas Open.  The movie takes you to the final scene of, “Will he make the final put to capture the championship?  However, the ending is not given.  The narrator asks, “Why does it matter?”  Ouch, the question had come back to me. 

I had to think some about my response.  The response seems easy when watching a movie about someone else’s life.  He was trying to receive his value from being a great golfer.  The movie alluded that he needed to go to God for the affirmation and value that he desperately wanted.  Not golf.  Not a championship.  Not a trophy. 

God knows the real questions of our heart, not necessarily what our words say or even what our mind thinks it is asking. 

My question, “Am I a good wife, and a good mother?” was really, “Am I valuable now? Am I more lovable now?  Am I now more worthy of the applause of heaven?”

The answer is, “NO, Why do these things matter?  Your behavior and My value and love I have for you are separate issues.  I have clothed you in my robe of righteousness.  You have been, and still are, perfectly loved and very highly valued.” (Jeremiah 31:3, Isaiah 61:10, Psalm 31:16, Psalm 107:8)

Yes, it was God that had spoken directly to my heart on Thursday morning.  He again spoke through the movie, and then He clarified even more through the devotion, “Jesus Calling.” (April 19)  He speaks in multiple ways, never contradicting His written Word.  I love that I am His sheep, I can hear His voice.  (John 10:27)  He answers the deep questions of my heart.  God’s ways are so not like ours.  His kingdom system of value, love, and rewards are so different than this earth kingdom.  I have been thinking this week about Jesus’ parable in Matthew 20 and I am amazed at the grace of God. 

Thank you Lord Jesus.  Amen.