My emotions cannot be trusted
My emotions are like a GPS……they can only be trusted when given the proper maps.
Yesterday I was on a road trip alone. I had my GPS. I have come to rely on it. It is just part of driving for me. Yesterday , though, it was wrong. It wanted me to go a way I didn’t want to go. I had already decided which way I should go. I was going the way trusted people had told me to go. I was going the way my map from map quest told me to go. But, my GPS was very loud. Very obnoxious. Never relenting. Continuously recalculating. I wanted to follow my GPS. I wanted to submit to this voice that was so controlling.
The GPS is like my emotions. My emotions are such a familiar guide. I usually follow them. They can be such a good instrument. They express love, joy, laughter, even pain and sorrow. But sometimes they are wrong. So very wrong. Yesterday my emotions were wrong . They were so loud. So over powering. I could barely hear anyone or anything over them. I had to cling to what I knew to be true, pure, and lovely. I had to ignore my emotions. I had to give them no place of honor. Laugh at them. Mock them. However you want to say it. PLEASE hear this. I DID NOT WANT TO. I felt like I was being wiped out. I felt like I would never recover. I felt like there was no hope. I felt like my life would be totally void of love if I didn’t follow these emotions. I felt like I had no choice but to do what I wanted desperately to do.
Did I really feel these emotions? YES. The emotions were real. The tears were real. The burning heart and chest pains were real. All the emotions were real.
Was the truth behind my emotions really true? NO. There was no truth. Just lies. The wrong maps. Deception in my thinking. Warped thinking. Ouch. I hate, hate, hate to admit this.
I must learn the difference in my emotions and the truth behind my emotions. I must learn to daily, hourly, continuously place the belt of truth around me.
God, please help me. Amen.
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